Outpatient does not mean easy....

Ok, so a few of my friends know that I have struggled with a deviated septum for years, and decided to do something about it this year. * non medical definition*- when you have something causing you to not breathe 100% through the airway as God designed:) Essentially the biggest annoyance is when i get an sinus infection or something of that nature, I keep it for months!! and somewhere deep down, i think that this will magically make me run faster, right? This pic is from Saturday.....



I went to the doc, and was asked almost immediately if I had ever broken my nose. Initially I said no. Then I began to very vividly remember slipping in preschool when in the bathroom. I had worn my new Sunday school shoes- and busted my lip and nose pretty good. But back in the day- the x-ray didn't show much. So, we pressed on....for 30 years :) Fast forward.



The blessed procedure was last Thursday. Little miss optimistic me decided I would officially take through Monday off, but would likely be ready to work again by Monday. Silly me.

We got to the hospital at 5 am for a 7 15 procedure.Seemed normal, however not everyone on the case heard 715....so the fun started at 10:15, and we didn't leave the hospital till almost 5 that evening. While in the surgery the doc confirm that I did break it...when I was 4 and had a bone spur as well just to add in some spice. So, I gave him a challenge. Here I am on sunday....



My family has been key though this process. Erin took the day off to hang with me- and then I have been staying at my grandmothers place ever since. Going on day/night 4 here. She is FANTASTIC!! She has waited on me hand and foot. All meals brought me in bed. (which have included Lima beans, pureed potato soup, tomato soup, mac and cheese, jello and pudding!!)Drawn baths for me, done my laundry and fresh drinks every couple of hours!. I have not been the most energetic guest, as I promptly take some pain killers every 6 hours! She is the greatest 93 year old nurse you could EVER imagine!!!



So, I am not necessarily in PAIN, but very uncomfortable. Best way to describe it is the worst head cold ever, where your nose is running all the time, but you cannot even begin to consider blowing your nose. All this since Thursday, and till next Thursday. Then the 2nd part of the fun happens. I think the Internet has been less than encouraging for this part of the process. I think I will request to be put under for the "unpacking" process, but doubt it will happen. So, please start praying as I am very scared about that!!



I will try to post an update after thursday. I am more of a yellow today, much improved over the black an purple.

Just cause I have to..

Ok, so I have had mixed emotions about blogging about my evening last night. ( out of fear that my parents will read this) Then after more thought, I realized there is nothing to hide, in fact, I hope they see.





So, as my active single social life goes, I spend many Friday nights with my parents. Last night was no different. I left work, went to the house to pick up Lucy, and we went to the dog park. Beautiful evening, and she had a blast. She was exhausted when we got home. (Lucy is my puppy, but lives with my folks. I have full custody of her and can steal her at will).

Ok- now that we have that out of the way. So, I get back to my folks and begin the chatting it up like normal. We talk work, current family events, etc. Nothing out of the ordinary. Around 10 or so, something was said that struck a cord with me- so I was not able to hold my tounge and talked back. Details are not pertinant to the story. So, after many tears (mine, not my parents), laughs and what not, I left at 12:45 AM.

Yes, 12:45 AM folks- can you believe it? Press on.

During that time learned many things:

• how my dad gave up on women


• how my mom and dad met and how he "proposed" - (it is s stretch...but it worked)


• how rough the first few months of marriage were for my folks- mom losing a kidney, no job, got a job, ice storm, bus ride, new car, new house with fence...new dog ( then 2.. the legacy live on in Lucy #6)


• how my grandad was a rebel ( explains a lot about me!)


• how my grandmothers house was flooded, but a great picture was saved!

I also left and had the realization that my parents are some of my very best friends. They love me and my sisters and their families with the perfectly flawed love they have. They care for my precious 93 year old grandma in a way that would make my grandad very proud.

I also left a bit fearful. I am scared I am going to lose them. Their health is not the best, and I cannot fix it for them. They attend doctors appointments at least 1 time a week it seems.

Not only would lose them, but the idea of them not being a part of my future breaks my heart. I want them to know and love the man I marry (still shopping folks, recommendations are welcomed). I want to see my dad rock my baby. I want some of the memories my sisters have had with my parents, is that too much to ask? Am I jealous of them, sure. But, I also know that I have been given the opportunity to know them in a way that they have not. And for that I am truly grateful.

Ok, need to stop before tears come back. I am fresh out!

But, mom and dad, if you stumble across this, know that I love you both dearly and thank you for what you have taught me over the years. I pray that I have some how made you proud with the not so perfect life I have lived thus far.

Random things to tell:

Random item #1

Ok- so, clearly the accountability didn't go so well.

However, most of that is my fault. Apparently keeping up with, and reading posts is a part of this virtual accountability!!I didn't realize I had sweet friends who had made comments on my post (until last week). So, ladies- yall are precious!

I at least can tell you all that I have been consistent. I have done none of what I set out to do :)

Random item #2
I have recently become a beginner blogstalker, so I feel compelled to share this. It just makes me giggle. This family recently had a baby boy, and has a great photographer friend out there-
Check out the march 16 posting.http://fraziermommy.blogspot.com/

Oh, and no, I don't really know them.

Random item #3
So I got a little onesie that looked like an ipod- and said "ipood" for a friend of mine who is expecting from this website. And sure enough, I am now on their mailing list. However, the magazine give me a good laugh. Here are a few items kind of along the same line of humor:

• dachshund farts a marry melody aka "Frank farter dog"
• matching shirts for your best friend- (I love my dog- and I love my mommy)- yes I am tempted
• not funny- but FANTASTIC idea...Brownie pan that puts edges on every serving!! YUM-O

for those of you who want to see more.....just click....HERE


the end.

2009...

Ok- so clearly 2008 was a bust in the world of blogging. So, I have a new idea.

Accountability. Yes, so if you are reading this, you too will be held responsible for my success and/or failure of the following goals;

1. Lose weight...yes- we all say this- I wil not bore you with the specifics. More or less, I need my clothes to fit again, so this is really for economic reasons, right?

2. Break 29 min in a 5K. I have never really RACED one since I started running- so this may need to be re-evaluated here in a few weeks.

3. Break 5 hours in a marathon. 6 Min over is my best.....so close!! hope to do Chicago this year- just waiting to figure out when registration is!! if you know- please share!

4. Break 2:15 in 1/2 marathon. Best is 2:18.

5. Church/fellowship- just something. Baby steps folks, baby steps.

HOW:
1. boot camp- M T W TH morning
2. Speed trainign T TH evenings
3. Long runs- probably sunday mornings......starting around 5 miles this week ( that is the GOAL!!)
4. No fried food.
5. Lots of water.


Ok-so there you have it. You know know the goals- and are a PART of the plan :)
Whats on your list?

Politics as an Adult (kind of)

I have had some interesting observations and realizations as we have come to befully imerssed in the 2008 race for the presidency.

• As an adult- things are very different. I pay taxes, (or they are taken from me), I pay for my own gasoline, I pay for insurance.



• I remember as a child being somewhat defeated when the candidate that my parents supported did not win. I guess it is the ever innocent mind wanting to believe that parents are not capable of being wrong. I have learned differently. (I still love them....)



• I have learned and observed how ugly it is for snap judgements to be made. Upon the announcement of Sarah Palin as the VP candidate I mentioned it to a friend, and they made a horrible face as if there could not have been a more irrational choice. I quickly learned that this reaction was based on ZERO facts. That annoys me.



• I have heard candidates referred to as "morons", "idiots," and "empty minded". Comments like this stir a fire in me of sadess and gratefulness all at once.

Sadness for the person/people making these comments. They have been blinded by opinions and pride that keep them from being able to appreciate others perspectives and experiences.

Gratefulness strikes me for those men and women who have enough guts to stand up and say they want to take a chance at running this country. I cannot imagine wanting to take a job where you know that at some point or another most people in your country and others will have negative things to say, and will wish another had been selected. I am thankful that these people exist and are willing to take on a position of this nature.

that's all..

uneventful.yet eventful

This weekend has been an uneventful one, but necessary. Here is a quick list of the events, in no particular order of occurance or importance.

• Friday I worked from my parents house as I had a horrific sinus/chest infection thing that I was fighting.



• Had an adult converstaion with the parents about grown up topics, even had different opinions, and it was OKAY!



• Saturday I was supposed to run in a 15k race- that didnt start till 7:30 AM! (for you fellow runners, you get it) I decieded to sleep in, and I kid you not I was in my bed getting sucked into lifetime moview, one after another, until almost 12:30. It was beautiful.



• Then I met the girls at the pool for some soaking in the sun, while in the pool. (yes mom, I used sunscreen)
  
  
• From there we went for drinks and appetizers and then to dinner and a movie with a bigger group of girls.



• Saw Mama Mia. I will share my opinion if asked .



• Sunday I got up to run with a friend a 5:30..we got in almost 10 miles, so I no longer feel behind in the training plan. Now, can anyone out there do SOMETHING about the humidity?



• I learned I got married while running

Yes, you read that correctly. At 9AM I received a call from a good friend asking what was going on. She was sincerly concerned. " You got married, you moved to Hurst?" "What is going on, is your job okay?"

I was dumbfounded. Then she read off the phone number updates that had been made on my account. New birthday, new numbers, and yes, a marriage.

Apparently while at my folks house earlier in the weekend I had not adequately logged out of my facebook account on my parents computer. My mother had gone into my account, and made updates as if it was her own. But, left the name. Odd.

I know that it was not intentionally done, but sure has provided some laughs!

Clearly she did know know the ways of Facebook. Anything updated is SHOUTED to your friends. And thus, the marriage was over.

Monday night at the office...

Yes, I said it. I am at the office. I have approx 7 minutes to type. And, not really anything much to say.
Why am I at the office, well- code push. Not exciting, nor glamorous. But, this is what I do about 2 times a month. I leave at 6 30, go work out..grab dinner and come back. Last time I was here till almost 2 AM. Tonight, I am praying for more of an 11:45 exit. However, that is not based on me. Sad, I know.

Ok- maybe I should say this. Why do I not WANT to go to church these days? Well, I havent been for several months, and dont have a place I call "home." Yes, this is the same Megan Eads you knew for years folks, just older, and well, just older.

Going to church as a single is NOT the same folks! If you are fresh out of college, sure, no problem. But a well aged career gal like myself, not so much. You are surrounded by folks who have community established in a church body because they started at age 4 and never left,they joined fresh out of collegs, and more often than not, have a family of their own. To attend church you have to get up the courage to sit alone, and be social. Getting out there is tough folks. So pray me through it. Or push me, or pull me- whatever works!

I know I need to be there, and have VERY good excuses to not attend these days. So, who is up for a challenge?